I just wanted to say Mazhara that out of all the people-the many MANY people I have met-you are the only one that I think is on par with God's will. It really warms me to know there is someone out there after all that thinks and loves people as much-if not more than I do. I feel myself becoming attached to you in a very strange way. I am glad and priveleged that we have met. It gives me hope in that others can be nice considerate wonderful people too.
My anger at people comes from their anger at me. No matter how much I love them they fight me and hate me and I try but to no avail to get them to love me. I find it increasingly hard to resist this need to fight back. Maybe however thats the test. If the world were full of people as kind as you then I would not get angry, then perhaps I suppose thinking now, I would never learn my lesson-that lesson being love people and not think of their hurtful ways and ways of letting them know of your anger, but to love them even more for being the way they are. I really would like this to be true. But drivers who annoy me, family problems and bickering, employment problems etc is a true test of my want to be loving to everyone.