I have a very strange experience sometimes, it feels a bit like a near death experience.
It happens when I am contemplating the mind and what consciousness is, how our consciousness is beyond the mind and body, that kind of thing ...
And then, I wake up. Whilst I am talking suddenly I get the feeling of waking up. Wow, it's frightening. Like a near death experience. Bang ! I am awake, and aware that I am awake. Thinking about it kind of makes it happen.
And I can't believe it. I can't believe my own consciousness awareness. What am I doing here ? What am I ? Why am I awake ? Suddenly I feel awake and aware, looking out through these animal eyes - what am I doing here ?
It's strange, suddenly I get the feeling of being really aware of myself and the strangeness of being conscious.
I mean, I understand that there is a biped species on a planet somewhere and evolution etc.. that's fine.
But why am I awake ? Where does the consciousness come from ? It's fu**ing strange.