as simple as it was to be understood by practice as hard as it is to be accepted by my rational mind ! what is it ?
It is
The unholy fact that we live in a chaotic system where luck seems to be the biggest player and by luck i mean the coalition of multiple events that lead to someone taking advantage from the consequences
It all stared a few days ago
there i was sitting with some friends whose luck was a lot better than mine and so they now belong to the so called millionaires class and a philosophical scientific argument popped up and took a few hours of our time .
in brief i was surprised to see how much persons who had the resources to travel the world and experience everything were poor on knowledge , on true knowledge to the extent that i started wondering if these men were able to strike gold with such low cognitive minds and rational thinking why am i still poor and lost in my life is it because i have an even less rational thinking , am i delusional of my state of conscience or could it be the other way around.
in fact i always though that in order to achieve more knowledge and lush my thirst for knowledge i should move up in my social class and so far i have failed intensively . i ve always though that those who lead countries , belong to secret societies know more than i do .
i ve always had hope than i the mixture of the chaotic everyday s life there is order there is someone watching and planning and that one day if i put enough effort i could be on my way there . Now in this stage in my life where failure seems to take the most of me i come to realize that chaos is all there is . That s been an idea that has been bothering my mind for sometime lately so i decided to know if someone can help me and explain to me how can i have hope again if all i see is luck and chaos what should i do to have myself motivated towards what i really love in life and that is knowledge????