Okay so firs thing's first: I feel like more of a dunce than I usually do for posting here, because of the quality of the content in the other posts in this section.
This is my story: My first memory of having issues regarding math goes back to 4th grade, when I was in advanced placement for everything that year. I did quite alright in whatever other subjects I was dealing with at the time, but math was tripping me up. Only thing I remember though is enjoying long division for some reason. I remember having many literal headaches due to whatever it was.
Skip to high school, and I struggled with it for the 3 years I had to take it. We had this experimental program called IMP (Integrated Mathematics Program) in which after a certain amount of time we'd switch to a different sort of math: Geometry to Algebra to Trig for example. There were other bits of things in there too. Just can't name them off hand. I found these years extra hard due to what seemed to me to be a rapid switching between the types of math. I'm absolutely horrible at remembering ways to solve problems, and just when I'd get a grip on one thing (usually slower than others) we'd move on, I'd have to learn something new and I'd forget nearly everything I'd learned before. I did terrible on midterms and finals as a result.
I did go to community college, and I did get through math, but not in the most....legitimate of ways.
To keep things simple, anything beyond basic math is largely quite difficult for me. And even basic math I have difficulty with to an extent. I'm horrid at mental math, and look like a fool when I have to use my fingers (or take even longer doing it mentally). I get a feeling that it's a bit of a psychological thing too in that I've convinced myself after so many years that I'll always be terrible at math. But I'm not completely lying to myself. I want to do something about it, as it's rather important, especially since I'm considering another career than what I was planning on doing (although that's obviously another thread) -- I just don't know what to do.
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tl;dr - I've been terrible at math most of my life, and I'm tired of it. Just don't know how to get my stuff together.
Sorry for the rant-like post. I appreciate any help.