What are the tell-tale signs that someone is about to take a dive into the depths of an addiction to alcohol?
I have a sense that I'm starting to travel down the road, but I'm not entirely sure. Drinking every day to the point where my girlfriend admits "I'm worried about you" certainly is a concern. However, I feel okay with it, because it opens a door to apathy that I didn't have before. When she hangs around me, when I want to be alone, I can so easily tune her out that it is as though she doesn't exist. Before, I was, in a way, forced to be aware of her presence. Even though I escape with the triple distilled Jameson Irish Whiskey, or the Jim Beam Black Label Kentucky Bourbon, or the exquisitely sweet Pyrat Rum, I share a bed with her. She doesn't let me forget that I stay up later than she does. She painfully reminds me that I'm not alone.
So, in all, I feel relief from the bottle. I feel as though I am crawling for escape as I take sip after sip from my glass. When I reach the state of uncoordinated numbness, I bask in its stupid glory.
It is truly a sad sight to watch myself, slowly pouring more into my glass, spilling liquids of all sorts all over myself as I attempt to quench my complex thirst. As a matter of fact....
I'm drunk right now.