
Originally Posted by
arKane

Originally Posted by
chad
The only thing I wanted to do to him, was thank him for not shooting me.
Say what?

It might be okay to think that. But if you show that kind of weakness you open yourself up to more of the same.
At least he's honest. I doubt he actually said that out loud to the guy, but the thing is, that's a pretty common feeling for a "nice guy" that finds himself "spared."
By 'Nice Guy,' I mean a person that is usually non-violent and means no real harm.
It's one of the primary reasons I could never act violently against a nice guy. On the scale of evolution, it makes no sense. Yet, it's nature all the same; I simply could not punch a guy that would feel gratitude toward me for not doing so if he knew I thought about doing so.
In the school days, I preferred to be as friendly as possible to 'such people' and help them avoid feeling gratitude toward jerks who would have hit them. In other words, defending some people from bullies. (Not saying Chad needed bully defense- I'm on a tangent.)
Maybe some part of me wanted others to believe that I was a "nice guy," too. I've never enjoyed or taken any pleasure in killing... I'll catch a bee or spider and put it outside rather than kill it. I never shot anything for sport or for fun.
But I do have that violence within me that I will do it quite coldly when necessary. It's like I am not a complete person or have a split personality or something... I am capable of violence to a man that strikes my son for example, but cannot be violent so as to make a victim.
There are many people in this world I can commit atrocities to and many people I could no more harm than I could strike my own child.
I liken it to why a gazelle will cry out when attacked by a lion. It's because some lions will feel pity for the gazelle and release it, if not hungry enough. That instinctive urge was passed on genetically- if caught, cry out- some may then let you go.
Or the leopard that adopted a baboon baby after killing its mother. She meant to eat, not to destroy. Not knowing what to do, she adopted the orphan rather than dispatch it quickly.