<Crap,have to do this again..post didnt save>(what good is auto-save if i can't access it?)
For those who remember where/what i posted on Sciforums about this..
WOO HOO!! I have been approved for diability for my ADHD!
financial stability at last! i am excited..
but this thread isnt about that..
through all this process to determine whether i am actually 'disabled' the question kept coming up 'what is it about your ADHD that prevents you from working?'
now to be honest..everything that i could come up with to answer that quesion always felt like 'supposition' like i did now 'know' with any certainty what it is that is making it hard for me to work..
whatever supposition i proposed (when i posted at sciforums) the response kept coming back 'get over your self', and when i was younger that answer worked..when i lost a job, i would be out the next day looking for work and didn't stop till i found one..(30 yrs working,60 jobs..discount the three jobs that lasted over a year (1=4yrs,1=3,1=5) and that is 2-3 jobs a year)..that was when i was younger..now stuborness has turned into frustration,apathy,discouragement,etc..
but there is more to ADHD than that..
some of the words i have become familiar with:
distraction
attention
inattention
impulsive
forgetful (see 'blonde moment')
now the attention thing is funny..
the majority of things i have read says that it is a lack of attention that is indicative of ADHD..but i have found that i can focus my attention on a particular task and excell at that task..problem is when i do that i do not have my attention on anything else..(case in point: posting..ask my daughter about my attention while i am posting..the house can be burning down while my attention is focused on responding to posts, and i wouldn't notice,till after i hit submit..)
so thinking about that i can understand the attention part a little better.
Now the hyperactive part, for me, tends to show up as 'fidgety' and i beleive influences how i think..makes me overthink things, always thinking, so much so that i have trouble sleeping at night, i am reminded of Curly of the three stooges "Im trying to think,but nothing happens" cept i try to stop thinking and nothing happens..at night i have to force myself to sing a song in my head so i can fall asleep..
this has also caused problems relationally..sometimes i have a hard time letting go of certain thoughts..the older i get the easier it is to let go of thoughts i do not want to think of..(but that just be 'old timers')
and thats where this becomes a discussion..
for me it is a struggle between what is the ADHD doing to me and what is it that i do to myself, where is that line between character imperfections caused by self and those caused by the ADHD?
so that brings us to why i started this thread..
i hope it can attract experts on ADHD (professionals: please be courteous and post qualifications)
but this board has a bunch of smart ppl on it..we should be able to come up with some insights and sort through the facts and myths surrounding ADHD.