This happens mostly when I'm in a situation where everyone is minding their own business on the bus, subway or just while walking on the street and I am suppose to do the same, but I just can't. I feel that my actions are not natural and are being constantly controlled by my conscious mind. My brain feels overwhelmed from all the information that it is receiving and I just can't act normal (even if I look normal, I don't feel normal).
For example on the subway/bus I constantly feel that I'm being observed. I'm scared of looking around and having eye contact with strangers. If I'm reading a book or magazine I just stare at it until my eyes start to burn, and I'm afraid to look around. However I am very aware of my surroundings just by looking from the side of my eyes (without actually moving my eyes). I basically feel stun locked in my position until I have to get up and leave.
I don't feel that I'm much afraid to look around, but rather not sure how to do so and afraid that it might look weird. The instant that I know what I'm doing is "okay" I suddenly become super confident!
I'm not a generally anxious person for example I have no problems giving presentations at school and also I'm very talkative when in my circle of friends and make jokes all the time.
I will greatly appreciate any advice that could help me overcome my fear.
Thank you