My entire life I have had what I can only call involuntary ideas. I am synaesthetic between color, sound and smell/taste. I perceive sounds and ordered information as a physical-spatial structure, and each sense involuntarily invokes another (sound invokes a visual, smell invokes visuals and sounds, and specific color gradients, shapes and smells cause involuntary sounds)
What is really starting to bother me is that as I get older, these are becoming much more vivid and I am starting to be able to recall almost any specific event in my entire life down to the specific smells, surroundings and sounds of the memory. As these things enhance, the involuntary perceptions of senses are starting to seem as though they are coming from an intelligent source. ideas and memories which are not my own flash into my mind, to such an extent that one of my most vivid experiences ever happened recently when I caught a whiff of spring air and a vision of an empty dark room flashed into my mind along with an instantaneous understanding of an idea, that the mathematics of Pi can describe the universe. I know next to nothing about Pi other than 3.14 and that (r)x(r)xPi = something. I do not even know how to find Pi, the way it was originally found, but it seemed as though my unconscious mind had come to a logical conclusion and endowed me with understanding of the concept. Before this, similar things had happened though I assumed them to be meaningless or old memories that I couldn't place, though very often during school tests I would get stuck on a math problem I didn't know how to solve because I slept through class, but the answer would come to me in a vision of physical shapes that I could understand and would get the problem correct, but would lose credit because I couldn't show any work.
Is it possible that my unconscious mind is speaking to me somehow, or that my exceptional math abilities are really owed to my subconscious, or is my synaesthesia simply making mathematics effortless? I saw a video of a kid in iceland or somewhere who had synaesthesia as well and he said he sees numbers as physical shapes in space, but described it to be much more vivid than I would. He holds the record for reciting digits of Pi off the top of his head, but he claims he is not doing the math and the answers are just appearing in his head; that much I can agree with.
So, am I going crazy or is this something to take advantage of, or is my unconscious speaking to me as a seperate intelligence from my own? Because of this throughout my life I believe in collective unconscious as carl jung described and I see that as the most likely answer, but I am no psychologist.