Thread: Am I crazy, or is my unconscious speaking to me?

My entire life I have had what I can only call involuntary ideas. I am synaesthetic between color, sound and smell/taste. I perceive sounds and ordered information as a physical-spatial structure, and each sense involuntarily invokes another (sound invokes a visual, smell invokes visuals and sounds, and specific color gradients, shapes and smells cause involuntary sounds)

What is really starting to bother me is that as I get older, these are becoming much more vivid and I am starting to be able to recall almost any specific event in my entire life down to the specific smells, surroundings and sounds of the memory. As these things enhance, the involuntary perceptions of senses are starting to seem as though they are coming from an intelligent source. ideas and memories which are not my own flash into my mind, to such an extent that one of my most vivid experiences ever happened recently when I caught a whiff of spring air and a vision of an empty dark room flashed into my mind along with an instantaneous understanding of an idea, that the mathematics of Pi can describe the universe. I know next to nothing about Pi other than 3.14 and that (r)x(r)xPi = something. I do not even know how to find Pi, the way it was originally found, but it seemed as though my unconscious mind had come to a logical conclusion and endowed me with understanding of the concept. Before this, similar things had happened though I assumed them to be meaningless or old memories that I couldn't place, though very often during school tests I would get stuck on a math problem I didn't know how to solve because I slept through class, but the answer would come to me in a vision of physical shapes that I could understand and would get the problem correct, but would lose credit because I couldn't show any work.

Is it possible that my unconscious mind is speaking to me somehow, or that my exceptional math abilities are really owed to my subconscious, or is my synaesthesia simply making mathematics effortless? I saw a video of a kid in iceland or somewhere who had synaesthesia as well and he said he sees numbers as physical shapes in space, but described it to be much more vivid than I would. He holds the record for reciting digits of Pi off the top of his head, but he claims he is not doing the math and the answers are just appearing in his head; that much I can agree with.

So, am I going crazy or is this something to take advantage of, or is my unconscious speaking to me as a seperate intelligence from my own? Because of this throughout my life I believe in collective unconscious as carl jung described and I see that as the most likely answer, but I am no psychologist.

Originally Posted by schiz0yd

So, am I going crazy or is this something to take advantage of, or is my unconscious speaking to me as a seperate intelligence from my own? Because of this throughout my life I believe in collective unconscious as carl jung described and I see that as the most likely answer, but I am no psychologist.

With sincere respects to Jung, I've found no evidence supporting his idea of a collective unconscious in my more than three decades of studying mind, consciousness, and dreaming. What you've described does indeed suggests to me the injection of unconscious perceptions into your conscious thought processes. This could indeed be a product of your synaesthesia. I've theorize that synaesthesia may be caused by a defect in the corpus callosum, which is the structure that connects the separate hemispheres of the brain. The defect likely involves either a fused connection between the separate hemispheres or partial agenesis, which is an omission in the structure connecting the hemispheres. Either condition could result in the fusion of sensory data and how it is stored and processed.

If your'e experiencing unconscious perceptions as imagery during your conscious state, this is not a normal condition of conscious brain function. The more extreme form of this condition is schizophrenia, wherein one's perception of reality is distorted. If your condition is becoming more acute, you should seek the advice of a professional. I hope this helps.

If your'e experiencing unconscious perceptions as imagery during your conscious state, this is not a normal condition of conscious brain function. The more extreme form of this condition is schizophrenia, wherein one's perception of reality is distorted. If your condition is becoming more acute, you should seek the advice of a professional. I hope this helps.

I agree.

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this would make a cool movie 8)

lol but i have the same problem all the time i think its prob just your imagination

lol but i have the same problem all the time i think its prob just your imagination

I know what the difference is between my synaesthesia and my imagination. my synaesthesia is involuntary and I cannot control it. the colors of numbers, days, months, years, sounds, have always been constants my entire life. for example, december is a dark, gray-blue and may is yellowish-tan. I can imagine whatever I want, picture things clearly when I want to. This wouldn't be a problem to me if it wasn't happening while I'm trying to think of other things. I believe it is also the reason I have been diagnosed with ADHD.

Your spirits knowledge is somehow free to interact with your sub dimensional human brain. Did you have some kind of peace of mind acheivement in your life? Did you find inner peace and understanding?

What you have is a knowing, without learning it. We all have intelligence that comes from nowhere in the sense that we would be able to measure using our instruments. See I am talking about this now with no idea or experience yet I know this. I could go into great detail about it if you are interested.


Then again your mind could just be creating advanced neuron connections in your brain that allow for complicated transfer of information or data that most people do not attain. Personally I would theorise that you are an advanced version of a modern human being, the next step in human evolution. I would summise that all kinds of 'disbalities' are actually new evolutionary biological manifestations of our technological and spiritual growth.

Originally Posted by Quantime

Your spirits knowledge is somehow free to interact with your sub dimensional human brain. Did you have some kind of peace of mind acheivement in your life? Did you find inner peace and understanding?

What you have is a knowing, without learning it. We all have intelligence that comes from nowhere in the sense that we would be able to measure using our instruments. See I am talking about this now with no idea or experience yet I know this. I could go into great detail about it if you are interested.


Then again your mind could just be creating advanced neuron connections in your brain that allow for complicated transfer of information or data that most people do not attain. Personally I would theorise that you are an advanced version of a modern human being, the next step in human evolution. I would summise that all kinds of 'disbalities' are actually new evolutionary biological manifestations of our technological and spiritual growth.

Quantime, I have to say, this is pretty far off the reservation, even for you.

I don't see any scientific content in there. Where are you getting this from? No offence.

schiz0yd:

When was the last time you have been to see a psychologist or psychiatrist? These experiences of yours seem pretty symptomatic to me.

I spent the majority of my adolescent and teen years with psychologists. Unfortunately I was unaware that my synaesthesia was anything special until I was 19, because I thought everyone's thoughts worked that way, until I described the way I do math to my college professor.

Your spirits knowledge is somehow free to interact with your sub dimensional human brain. Did you have some kind of peace of mind acheivement in your life? Did you find inner peace and understanding?

What you have is a knowing, without learning it. We all have intelligence that comes from nowhere in the sense that we would be able to measure using our instruments. See I am talking about this now with no idea or experience yet I know this. I could go into great detail about it if you are interested.

Quantime, your opinion is something I have actually been researching a great deal ever since I experienced exactly what you're talking about; peace of mind achievement. I have battled social anxiety and depression my whole life, at least as far as I can remember, and during an LSD experience I was literally wiped clean of it all and gained confidence, as well as knowledge somehow which caused it in the first place. When I was on LSD it felt like I was downloading knowledge straight into my head without learning it, and it was coming straight through my synaesthesia to me in visions. I am a little confused on your second paragraph here and I am very interested in hearing you go into great detail on this matter. I have done deep personal experimenting with consciousness and the possibility of a collective nature behind it, through meditation and experimentation with hallucinogenics (as they seem to have been my mental cure). Please PM me or post more information.[/quote]

Originally Posted by KALSTER

I don't see any scientific content in there. Where are you getting this from? No offence.

Non taken. Yes none of that was scientific I know

I am getting it from my sixth sense, ordinary ideas and knowledge I have no direct physical source to show for. There have been numerous high achieving humans who have noted that many of their ideas and inventions came from 'it just came to me'. or 'i just knew it would work'.

All of that is something that science will not be able to prove until humankind has fauith in itself and the greater infiinte that is out there, or rather in *here*.

Originally Posted by KALSTER

schiz0yd:

When was the last time you have been to see a psychologist or psychiatrist? These experiences of yours seem pretty symptomatic to me.

Yes, psychological disorders and illnesses can easily cross over with a spiritual (or higher dimensional awareness/perception) awakening. It happened with me, I went off on a tangent that gave me psychosis and not only borderline schizophrenia but multiple personality types. It is a very thin line to walk and one can easily become lost.

KALSTER. Have you not the feeling of 'floating around' in your life? Or feeling as though something is missing in your life? My sixth sense is telling me you do and that you feel something but you cannot explain it, yet you know it is there (I know that sounds very philosophical, don't worry Im not going to push that question if you dont' want to answer, or lie you on a leather couch with a pen and paper in my hand ).

Originally Posted by schiz0yd

Quantime, your opinion is something I have actually been researching a great deal ever since I experienced exactly what you're talking about; peace of mind achievement. I have battled social anxiety and depression my whole life, at least as far as I can remember, and during an LSD experience I was literally wiped clean of it all and gained confidence, as well as knowledge somehow which caused it in the first place. When I was on LSD it felt like I was downloading knowledge straight into my head without learning it, and it was coming straight through my synaesthesia to me in visions. I am a little confused on your second paragraph here and I am very interested in hearing you go into great detail on this matter. I have done deep personal experimenting with consciousness and the possibility of a collective nature behind it, through meditation and experimentation with hallucinogenics (as they seem to have been my mental cure). Please PM me or post more information.

I will if you like, but please bare in mind that none of what I will talk about comes form any physical source, it is merely 'in my head' so to speak. I am allowing my skeptic brain to but in here, yet my subconscious is telling me to blank it.

Quantime, your opinion is something I have actually been researching a great deal ever since I experienced exactly what you're talking about; peace of mind achievement.

A great deal of people are awakening to this 'peace of mind' phenomena. I do not know what is causing it, yet it is having a major foothold in the development of our future selves. A great change is occuring and it makes me smile knowing that you are at least interested in it. Did it come naturally or did certain events in your life cause you to follow this research?

I have battled social anxiety and depression my whole life, at least as far as I can remember, and during an LSD experience I was literally wiped clean of it all and gained confidence, as well as knowledge somehow which caused it in the first place.

You are probably an experienced soul whos spirit has either come from the future or has assigned itself a very important role to undertake down here on Earth. I cannot imagine how difficult the depression was even though I empathise having suffered it myself in the past. I might consider your LSD cure

Drugs are said to release the conscious mind's order on our awareness, allowing for us to temporarily see the infinite. Scientists will say that the drugs simply have a hallucigen effect on which certain excesses of chemicals released in the brain will cause the mind to emulate certain images and mistake them for reality.

They are right, and no doubt that is the truth in the 3rd dimension with our very limited knowledge. In par with that knowledge and 3rd dimension's science institutions, very and fairly well condemn me.

When I was on LSD it felt like I was downloading knowledge straight into my head without learning it, and it was coming straight through my synaesthesia to me in visions.

It is the infinte intelligence that is all around us entering your mind. A download source. The modern world is very locked down with 'firewalls' limiting our knowledge and downloading from the grand computer server network that is the infinite consciousness. As I said before, drugs allow for this download to occur easier.

HOWEVER, that is cheating, it is far safer to meditate to learn this knowledge than to shortcut with drugs. Anyone reading this DO NOT take drugs. Period. Full stop. They seriously effect the bodys vibrations and biological functions down here in the 3rd dimension and they have more of their fair share of effects in the higher dimensions.

I have done deep personal experimenting with consciousness and the possibility of a collective nature behind it, through meditation and experimentation with hallucinogenics (as they seem to have been my mental cure).

There must be a desire coming from somewhere for you to know something, I assume that you have had a life where you have felt an emptiness within? As though there was something you were supposed to be doing but were not totally sure what that something was?

Originally Posted by Quantime

What you have is a knowing, without learning it. We all have intelligence that comes from nowhere in the sense that we would be able to measure using our instruments. See I am talking about this now with no idea or experience yet I know this. I could go into great detail about it if you are interested.

What I meant by this was that our spirits contain very important knowledge, but only knowledge that our spirit's have learned. You see each life you are incarnated in you experience a lesson, that lesson teaches your spirit something that it needs for the next challenge in the next life.

Take child prodigy's, with an amazing knowledge of how something works, how to paint, how to play piano at virtuoso level. All these miraculous talents are coming from the spirit that has great knowledge. This is how we find certain jobs comfortable. This is where phobias come from. This is where unconscious urges, and desires that control people come from, even when a psychologist or psychiatrist cannot find those sources, no matter how many years of experience they have.

Certain people that are very skeptic of what I am talking about, and all I am talking about are young spirits with many lessons to learn.

These people make great scientists (and most are) yet how many of these skeptics have achieved greatly in any field of science? Non, that is my point. Most scientists such as Maxwell, Newton, Einstein all had similar lives; floating around doing sweet f/a (fuck all) until one day they get ideas come from nowhere and then proceed to smash thousands of years of 'fact' with their new ideas.

Here is a list of ages for a spirit:

1: Birth: Lives entail simple livings.
2: Childhood: Lives entail learning small lessons of skepticism and beliefs.
3: Adolescence: 'Awakening' to 'the supernatural' aka God, (they become religious)
4: Youthful adulthood/adulthood:

This one entails hundreds to thousands of years of lives to gather experience and knowledge. I would say about between 10-15% of the world are here right now.

5: Maturity: Spirits are awake and aware, with the human being being able to see the future, contact spirits etc etc.

6: Elder: Mostly residing in the spiritual realm, guiding all other spirits and teaching them what must be done.

7: Leapers

This one is I feel the rarest. As humans stride into the unknown, also spirits have their limits and boundaries. Spirits that were elders now move from that position to look for new ways of being not only on Earth but in multiple dimensions above even where spirits reside.

Leapers are VERY old spirits with a vast array of knowledge. These people from the age of being born have intense passion and love in their eyes, as such they grow up being separate from the norm, even with people they love they do not fit in. Even with the people that do not fit in they do not fit in.

This is because of the perception filter that is occuring. You see their spirits are vibrating at such high forms that they hardly are on earth and present. These people tend to day dream. They are people that want to incorporate advanced technology in the lower dimensions (there was a war over this in the higher dimensions due to the riskf of manevolent beings being able to take over all dimensions using a power struggle).

As spirits of elder age, their lesson is to 'come back to earth' so to speak and live a normal life of birth and a child, all the ages as you will... and step boldly into the futures unknown reaches.

I suspect you are the last one; a leaper. You see you are aware of this higher consciousness, most people are fulfilled by this and feel 'full' but I can tell you do not, that is because you have put yourself here, on this earth for some grand purpose. You will never feel full because you are one of a kind, a new leap into even the spiritual's unknown.

Similar feelings occur within me, and I do not know where any of what I have wrote has just come from, it just came to me...

That happened all my life, and it gets stronger.

Just a question, have you noticed the number 111 cropping up at all frequently schizoid?



And I will stop there, this is not scientific and it completley nothing to do with anything anyone here will hardly be able to comprehend or even believe, not at least relating to psychology (in scientific terms anyway). Feel free to move this to pseudo science Kalster, (as long as Biologista promises not to delete it).

TD

i feel like im at a hippie convention

Join us future flower child... join the darkside.... we have chocolate buscuits.

Quantime,

Thank you. Your insight has been an important piece of my natural understanding of existence. Since my earliest childhood I have been questioning my own existence and seeking to explain it rationally. Through my synaesthetic ability to visualize I believe that I have, at this very moment, realized that I now have all the required pieces of information to complete the grand puzzle, which I would estimate is about 95% assembled. All that is left is contemplation, fitting the pieces together and simplifying my understanding of it in order to form a simple-to-understand hypothesis. Considering the absolutely shocking beauty of the way information is now falling into place, the simplified, conscious understanding MUST endow an infinite and eternal state of bliss. I originally began this message blindly forming metaphors and rational explanations of what I have found so far, and in so doing realized something so amazing I did not want to release it in a jumbled form for someone else to misinterpret when I am confident I can simplify it into something that can neither be agreed nor disagreed with; it will simply be understood. There will be no questioning of it, no need for collectively dualistic beliefs regarding it's authenticity. I am beginning to see the future outcomes of what I write. This is amazing. I need to stop typing.

This is what I can tell you, in simplicity: the missing information required to complete this puzzle is left within yourself to be found through 'common sense' without the influence of memories.

Einstein believed that the theory of everything would be incredibly simple, and he was right. What he failed to see is that the mathematical equation to explain it is expressed everywhere in reality.

Zero.

Quantime, due to your selfless nature, you will be of the first I communicate the understanding to once it occurs. Those with a selfless nature will inevitably understand. Those of you know who you are, because you have been born with a natural sense of 'good'. A natural sense of creativity. The ability to spawn entirely unique concepts and create metaphors. This material world is, on the macro scale, subject to the same laws as the micro....

Okay I know that last sentence will be disagreed with but this is where I MUST stop typing, since I just realized what I was about to type and I could write endlessly about it; trust me I can explain it but not concisely. Like you said Quantime, I am just saying these things without really knowing them; I feel like a middle-man in the exchange. What I just realized is absolutely extraordinary and I must piece it together before I start spewing it out incoherently.

There is a difference between understanding HOW and WHY. The standard model, or any other theory may predict HOW things work, but it will NEVER answer the WHY.

I just realized the WHY of gravity, and realized how it has to be linked to the micro as well as the macro universe.

@ schiz0yd

"questioning my own existence"? - something suggests to me that this could quite possibly be the after effects of that LSD...


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I don't belive it's due to psycosis/sktizo, but due to faulty brain wireing, it's obseverd specially in brain cancer patiens who will have some of their areas of the brain pressurized, thus will have some distorted preception, ie having sounds trigger smell sensations.

i have had lots of the same feelings that i have read in the above posts.

I feel in need to just type this;

I feel that i can place a reason and/or connection for every single moment in my life as far as i can remember (age of 2). At close to 35 now i think its starting to make me crazy. Almost everything and anything that happens now i try to retrieve a real memory or thought that took place earlier in my life, making me think that everything happening now is controlled by a spirit that i am. I feel everyone i interact with is part of something the spirit creates. It is very hard for me to explain, I'm going to just ramble on.

I have a memory from about 2 years old where i think i had a panic attack that cause me to feel that time was still, this was caused by the question i asked a sitter "what happens when we die", since then i feel that i am able to control my time and what happens while my time exists. I feel that i subconsciously create everything. I think I am the only spirit in existence, and when i am aware of the subconscious i can control my being. I feel that this exhausts my spirit and one day I will have to control my thoughts to rest my spirit to end itself. Meaning if i could learn to control this spirit from growing tired it could go on for eternity experiencing what ever it wants -happiness, love, youth, what ever. The main problem is that because this spirit has already made itself aware of death it is inevitable. Knowing it will have to subconsciously create how this will happen as it has created everything else.

I feel it has created all experience= the ways things feel, taste, smell, look,and hear.
and when it grows tired of experience, person, places or things it moves on.

So controlling the subconscious and/or spirit how do I reboot and bring back all the experience, people, places and things, that are no longer existing in my concious

Originally Posted by Quantime

Your spirits knowledge is somehow free to interact with your sub dimensional human brain. Did you have some kind of peace of mind acheivement in your life? Did you find inner peace and understanding?

What you have is a knowing, without learning it. We all have intelligence that comes from nowhere in the sense that we would be able to measure using our instruments. See I am talking about this now with no idea or experience yet I know this. I could go into great detail about it if you are interested.


Then again your mind could just be creating advanced neuron connections in your brain that allow for complicated transfer of information or data that most people do not attain. Personally I would theorise that you are an advanced version of a modern human being, the next step in human evolution. I would summise that all kinds of 'disbalities' are actually new evolutionary biological manifestations of our technological and spiritual growth.

My goodness, I finally find someone who I can really follow in spirit. There are many ideas and answers that pop up in my mind and I really do not know where they come from. There are some experiences that I cannot tell anyone because I have tried but there seems to be no understanding. I have come up with answers that I have not know before but after I looked it up I find I am right. I do believe what you say that those are pre-evolutionary thoughts and that is where our development is heading. Thank you for you answer it was a long time coming.